I'm so tired of getting accused of things that I never mean it,do or even think about it. My reputation seemed to be ruined by untrue assumptions and accusations by people that were once closed to me or maybe even not close to me. But only those who are true to me, will understand me and still hang out with me.

I don't wear a mask. I don't use people. If you think I wear a mask and use people, ask yourself were they just assumptions? For example, " I think he is using us.", " See, he did this and that. So obviously he is using us. ".... bla bla. If you actually treat me as a friend or someone close to you, just tell me straight at my face or talk to me about it. You don't have to talk about things like that behind me and assumed its the truth. Maybe you think that I am assuming too. I hope I'm making assumptions that are not true too. But I have got something to proof I'm not making assumptions.

I'm lucky to have friends that will not assume and will tell me about how they think. I didn't get mad at them no matter what they told me, instead I was happy. I explained happily to them too. To those friends, you know who you are. Thank you so much!

I will just be myself in front of anybody. I am someone who you can just point out my bad points to me, no matter how bad they are, if you point them out to me, I'll be happy and will explain to you happily! But if you talk behind me and assume things, only you know why you will do that. I will admit I'm wrong if I'm wrong. This is referring to anyone who did this to me, not any specific person. If you take this as an offense, just to let you know I am just trying to explain how things work in me and hope you will understand that I am not how you think I am. I am not using an offensive tone to say this.

To someone who were once so close to me way back in the past like last year, sorry that I could no longer change even after hearing your explanations and made you cried. I didn't want that but something you said just left me a scar in my heart that made me afraid of you. I stopped putting in anymore effort after hearing that something you said. You treated me so much better after that but I'm sorry I can't go on like that for that period of time. You were always there for me and I still want to be there for you. But its all too late. The timing is all wrong.

To someone else, you can tell people your only side of story. I don't know. If you're spreading bad or untrue things about me to your friends, I hope you are not doing that because you didn't cherish me and only did when you have already lost me. Like you said, cherish before you lose it. You yourself know how good I treated you.

I'm sorry if there are any misunderstandings caused. If it is offensive to you, I apologised too. My purpose is to help you all to understand what is going through my mind and how I feel.