* disappointed ..

what is the definition of maturity ? maturity = COMING OUT FROM NS ? maturity = happiness ? how matured is considered matured. doesn't mean coming out from army means you will be more matured in relationship. its stereo-typing ( meaning judging one and conclude the same about the others ) . hmm.. what i loved you for, no longer exist in you. only you yourself know what is going on. nobody else. right or wrong and lies or truth, only you yourself know.

i can no longer comment much because i have given up hope in trying to wake you up. i tried my best. only you yourself can wake yourself up. maybe you think you don't have to, but think of the future, about us, what you have done. you said you heck what other thinks of you because they are not you. but only you yourself know what they think of you is right or wrong. you yourself know what you have done.

during 2 years plus and after going and coming back from thailand, you changed in a bad way. think. problems happened but you never learn. i learnt some and changed, but some i only managed to change recently and maybe there are still some i haven't manage to change yet but at least i'm trying. i was once violent and saying harsh words like bitch and dirty to you. but i changed. did you try to change to be honest ? only you yourself know. you once told me i'm very lucky because you won't easily love or like someone else, now only you know the answer. i'm really disappointed with you. after our 2 years plus relationship, you walked away to someone else just like that without even compromising our problems with me. i feel like a toy. there may be more things which i don't know. are those reasons you broke up with me true or excuses? or there are more ? only you yourself know.

what have you become ? search your guilty conscience and think what you have done. only you yourself can wake yourself up now. who are you now ?