sigh..

every morning i wake up at 9.30.. and start to torture myself again.. yesterday.. after hours.. i put down my pride and bought something for her to cheer her up.. but i said wrong things !! argh.. but can't i be forgave.. i'm not perfect you know.. people make mistakes.. this evening we are going to meet to go a house warming.. but she didn't reply me last night.. maybe because of what i said wrongly.. will she still invite me to her cousin's house warming.. i'm waiting for her call now.. many people said.. " move on.. why don't you move on.. she loves you she will not do this to you.. " thanks guys.. i know.. but i just do not want to believe she is that kind of girl.. and wants to be with her.. but.. things are so complicated.. i don't know many things.. i only know a few things for sure.. i am changing to be with her.. and i love her too much.. and i will give her happiness and make her feel like the happiest girl on earth.. i promise to do that.. and i will..