what is love..

what is love.. its also my fault that things became this way.. is it too late? or i still can make everything back to what it was and better ? i regretted everytime i spoil a gd chance.. like yesterday i intended not to care and just concentrate on my change.. if she really loves me she will come back to me.. but my heart soften when i see her sad face.. so i got her a gift.. she was happy when she got my gift.. but i spoilt it by asking the wrong things and phrasing my words in the wrong way that made her felt being forced and not thinking before i say.. but that wasn't what i want.. i don't wanna force you.. i just mis-phrase it.. my world seems so empty now.. my heart seems to weaken.. now i won't contact her.. because.. she said she will contact me about the time.. i messaged her too but no replies.. so i think.. i'll just wait.. i hope she won't because of the wrong things i said and don't meet me.. i really hope i can be happy again with her so my mum , sis and my gd bro joseph and lian kwang can stop worrying.. but even if without her.. i have to be happy too..

now i still have hope in my heart to be with her.. i admit.. i really hope she wants to be with me still just that maybe if i change it would be better.. and only be with me.. its just like waking up from a dream and steppin into another nightmare when she says she wants to break up with me.. she didn't take the bear off.. i misunderstood.. sorry..